L&D

my first day of this 2 week stint in the LND has been emotionally exhausting.

my first patient was sweet,yet revealed too much information to me.

i got to watch an epidural,and the anaes was very nice to explain what she was doin while doin it.the delivery was succesful Alhamdulillah, then the cord snapped during CCT! so they did a manual removal of placenta, where the doctor puts his hand all the way into the uterus to manually remove the placenta.it was surreal. Thank God the lady was on epidural.i think i did not blink or breathe throughout the procedure.but Alhamdulillah she seemed fine after that, happily looking at her healthy baby which i got to clean up with baby oil and dress him :) (sometimes i think i'd rather be a nurse cos they get to do all the fun stuff with the babies)

a lovely young couple lost their 31-weeks-old baby today. there were some fetal abnormalities, so even though the baby was >800g, she wasnt viable :( i watched the father staring helplessly at his child.crying into his hands.

cant help thinking bout those people who kill their babies without another thought when these people would do anything to keep theirs alive. its sad really.

my first look into the darker side of O&G. its much too dark. i am definitely cutting O&G from the list. i can handle the death of a neonate, i believe he/she will be happy in heaven,insyaAllah. but its a bit harder to handle the parents of a dead baby. Its times like these when its easier to console those who have faith in Him. because theres nothing you can say otherwise.