yesterday was the last day of my pre-clinical studies. as much as i am looking forward to a new phase, and at last meeting real patients i can interact with,im dead afraid of not being able to reach my standards and dissapointing the people who matter.Thank God for the few months before actually starting, giving me a chance to buck up,insyaAllah.
the saddest thing would be having to part with some people who have made my 3 years here unbelievably beautiful. :( Thank God for photographs. :)
i need to realize that there are some things i cannot control and probably have no say over. its in my nature to worry about everything to do with my loved ones though.but sometimes, all that can be done is to pray that everything goes well.
on a happier note, will be spending more time with Red now! its amazing really how something so small can have an effect so big on everyone who meets him. its funny how i can rudely be woken up by his shrieks yet start laughing the moment i see his tiny fists trying to punch me. and after a loooong while of screaming his lungs out and throwing a tantrum while the milk is being made and cooled, and after he's full and pushes the bottle away, he'll suddenly start giving you his most charming smiles accompanied by the gile cute dimples and you'll just feel like biting him. Pandai tau budak kecik tu. im sure when he grows up,he can get away with anything with that smile. cant wait to bring him swimming and playing badminton. ok la, maybe badminton will have to wait. :)
lalalala..just the thought of him has lifted up my mood. this boy is a drug!
