lets rebel!

i've just realized tonight that im living up to the 'no life' motto of med students. books,scls,classes,discussions,meetings, and more books. i can feel it take a toll on me, and everyone around me for that matter. i've been sleeping on my Robbin's book 2 nights in a row! which means i havent been having my daily dose of fictional reading to feed my imagination before i sleep. i still havent finished 'the reluctant fundamentalist', which is so nipis, it should have been done in a night. shame on me. what a geek! but i refuse to falter in my belief that med students can still score and have fun at the same time! at least not CUCMS med students. ok la,not score exactly, just..not fail la. heh. so tonight i shall start! memberontak!

im supposed to be preparing for the 3 classes of prof rashid 2mrw. i finished my part for the scl, and ive decided not to read the rest. tonight i'll treat myself to a night of coffee and fun books. read: FUN books. (eventhough i love robbin's cause of all the colours, its definitely not included in the FUN books list tonight)

digging my own grave, u say? oh heck! so be it! =p

join me? =)

practicing my SAQ answering skills

i was tagged by elly! hahaha this is gonna be weird i think. but its 3 am, and this is way better than embryology!

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
- honestly, i dont know. i guess it depends on the kind of betrayal kot

2. What will you do if you do not share the same feelings as the person who likes you?
- tell him. or her. ;p

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
- sweet n simple. with only our family n close friends. and all my(our?) favourite food!
good food+ good company = happy faran ;)

4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
- confused? no kot. more like curious. and in anticipation

5. What's your ideal lover like?
- ideally, the list can go on. and on. but i'l settle for a family guy yg beriman. heh.hopefully he can make me laugh as well =) i prefer the word partner instead of lover btw.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone else?
- being loved by the person u love is best! (x menjawab soalan. i know ;p nnt kene marah ngan prof rashid. heh)

7.If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?
- hmm..im not sure. depends on how much i like him i guess. and how worth it he is.

8. Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?
- lalalala

9. What do you want most in life?
- anything that can lead to a better hereafter, InsyaAllah

10. Is being tagged fun?
- err, weird question. i wasnt sure at first what being tagged meant. kene tanye org. haha

11. If you find out that your best friend is going out with your boyfriend/girlfriend, how would you react?
- going out as in dating ke? that wouldnt happen with my bestfren la.

12. Who is currently the most important person to you?
- ibuku

13.What kind of person do you think I am?
- elly? sweet,very very nice, and strong =)

14. What is the most unforgettable thing/event in your life?
- err. kantoi matrix! will never forget the day i got my results thru sms. i could only laugh at the horrendous sight

15.If the person you secretly like cannot recognise you, what would you do/how would you react?
- x mungkin dr ahmed x recognize i! i spent a whole afternoon being his fake patient! i sanggup act like i had SLE for him! ;p

16. Would you give your all in a relationship?
- i'd like to think i would. when the time comes of course.

17.If you fall in love with two persons simultaneously, who would you pick?
- hmm..i dont think its possible for me to 'fall' in love with 2 people at the same time. its hard enough falling in love with 1 person.

haha! nampak sgt xde keje! ( ade byk sbnrnye)

k, im tagging this people. you guys kene buat jugak! tau! babab!

1. sara! hahahahhahaha wajib!
2. abel! heheheh i know u will..=)
3. pinkipoooooo ..pls?hehe
4. niza! do it niza! wow us with ur lame-A plus-SAQ answrs.
5. ong bong! when ure free. i know ure busy joget-ing nowadays :)

infundibulum

its only been a week since we came back from the long awaited break. and yet so many many things have happened. im still trying to get over how things can turn 180 degrees just like that. no warning yo! huh. maybe i expected to much.but i guess, whats life without a few surprises eh? not good for the heart though. SAN rhythm interrupted.

i think i might just take up pricking people as a hobby. can? i love changing the needles and the smell of the alcohol swabs. weird?

i wish ppl would try and put themselves in other ppl's shoes before they say or do certain things. i forget sometimes. i guess u tend to forget and not really care when u're happy. not right disitu.

dr norhin said a few funny things regarding marriage the other day. and today sara came back from agama, (which she probably only attended for half an hour =p ) and said something even funnier about being married! hahahaha. dont really feel like getting married at this point. but ask me again 2mrw, my moods change faster than moja can shout kigges! ;p

Some day I'll wish upon a star

And wake up where the clouds are far behind me

Where troubles melt like lemondrops

Away above the chimney tops

That's where you'll find me

lets go somewhere over the rainbow!! convoy!! =)

things i hutang kat orang

- hazelnut n ice cream toast n lotsa news

- sluar pasar mlm

i x lupe! nantikan lah! =]

hazelnut coffee anyone?

When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on
Don't let yourself go, 'cause everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes

Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go, (hold on)
When you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on

'Cause everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone

If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on

Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
Everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
Everybody hurts. You are not alone

nothing to do with how i feel right now. just love this song. =) should have been in the earlier posts ;)

i like rem.

ps- mr b, cant find what ur looking for. everythings annoyingly overpriced! i refuse to give in to the well-dressed-society-accepted sharks. i might have to search for it in putra je nanti k. might have better luck at the pasar mlm..boleh kan? =)

leaving u guys with this beautiful saying an elderly relative i hardly knew before related to me today. she wrote it in one of my favourite books~

God allows us to experience the low points of life
to teach us lessons
we could not learn in any other way.
the way we learn these lessons
is not to deny the feelings
but to find the meanings underlying them.

hmm?

oh, i like this one
~ God heals, and the doctor takes the fees. kehkehkeh!

join me for a cup of hazelnut coffee? ;) missing u wackos already

infinitely estatico!

im flying high & happy!! =D

cos she's happy!! she SOO is!

i can hear the smile behind that voice! wish i could read her eyes but we're separated by an ocean.
oh well, not for long ;)

i love this feeling of happiness u get ~ tumpang-ing on someone else's. haha!

sahabatku, dun kill me when u read this post. couldnt help myself! ;p you noe i love u! hah!

some snippets for me & u =)

You just call out my name
And you know wherever I am
I'll come running to see you again
Winter, spring, summer or fall
All you have to do is call
And I'll be there
You've got a friend (in me!)

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy
But nothing's greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe

Made room for me; but it's too soon to see
If I'm happy in your hands
I'm unusually hard to hold on to

kamu x gila. kamu bahagia.
saya juga bahagia bangat untukmu sahabat!

A friend is one before whom i may think aloud =)
~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

thirty three

what the hell??

in less than 8 hours..i'll be having my respi finals.the block i kinda promised myself i would do much better in than musculo.. but i still have tons to read and NO mood.

whats up wit me??

i hate when someone has that effect on me. makes me feel weak. i hate that person. i dont really though. i cant even hate someone i wanna hate. how pathethic is that?! dont answer that.

my phone got barred. reality check? =p

listening to smashing pumpkins. not good. all the melancholiness. Sudais here i come!

Speak to me in a language I can hear
humour me before I have to go
Deep in thought I forgive everyone
Tomorrows just an excuse away

twix in the rain

heh, read my entry last night again. i rily let it out didnt i. it was all the not sleeping doin the talking. all the while i had that one person on my mind. things i so wanna say, but dont have the guts to..for fear of making his liver small (kecikkn hati). but im glad i got to say all that. i dont think i was fully concious of what i was doing. haha

however, the person i hope would read this, never will kot.

oh well.