!!syadiloh <-- hehe (lame)

its 12.07 am and im typing this in a cybercafe in Damansara. Sumayah (=p)wants to catch up on mail and im just tagging along. a few emails i need to reply, but curently not in the mood.

IM ON HOLIDAY PEOPLE!! =DD

I've finished 1st year..finally..Alhamdulillah =) i have definitely learnt alot. im pretty sure i grew alot too..emotionally..physically? heh..and insyaAllah..spiritually.. one thing for sure, ive changed! for the better hopefully! those who knew me during our foundation days and today..can tell u how much ive changed. when i read back my old journals, or notes i jot down in my little notebooks i have loads of, i sometimes cannot believe that it was actually me who wrote down all those things. i used to bring notebooks around religiously, just to jot down an interesting thought, or funny sayings i hear, sometimes just weird ideas i have that i dont dare say out loud (people already think im crazy as it is). i havent done that in awhile cos i no longer bring bags around. but reading back my thoughts, i laugh at how naive i sounded. i wrote how i was angry with this one person. how i was so dissapointed with how my friend turned out to be. someone i trusted. i was probably the most trusting person 1 year ago. heh.

however, im still the same me in alot of ways. im still blur about things. i still think theres good in everyone. im still the hopeful self. still the slight-feminist (kadang2 la - come on la, i spent 11 years in an all girls school. our motto was girl power.what do u expect? =p) im still defensive when it comes to family and close friends. there was a coffee stain on one of the pages,so i guess that hasnt changed. and i still hate fish. oh, and i know im still naive about certain things.

i just dont really like how ive become more 'hard' than i was. i can see people killing stray dogs now. i'll curse them but i wont write to the papers. i'll say its not worth it. and i dont talk as passionately about the evill-ness of keeping birds in small cages or clipping the wings of flamingos so they wont fly away.

i guess we'll never cease to change. lets see what happens in a year =)

i'll have to start jotting down stuff again.

times nearly up. still got more to say.haih

watched the hulk ystrdy. it was good! sad sikit. kesian the hulk. people never took the time to understand him. people who create trouble are usually the troubled ones. and most of us are so busy judging and hating them to actually try and see their problems and help them. kan?

watched the happening gak. x best! hated the ending. it was kinda scary la at times. but the whole explanation was....blahhh...

people are smoking here. busuk gile. and my throats all itchy. second hand smoke kills! out we go!

rakan2!! selamat bercuti!! =)