majulah sukan demi Tuhan! =)

i keep quoting prof Hatta nowadays. heh

this sports carnival is off to a great start i think! =)

contrary to what you might think, its not because red house is winning most of our matches ;p

winning feels great of course. but whats better than winning is the feeling you get after a good match where everyone plays clean and fair. when everyone in the team gets to play, even the reserves. when people remember that the main objective of the sports carnival is to get all us cucmsians to bond, strengthen our ukhwah, and sweat like mad! and of course, cheering like crazy. i love how our super seniors who are super busy off in clinicals still come down for the matches and give their all. its times like these only do we get to meet and be silly,kan =) and also the foundys who we rarely get to mingle with. =)

then after the game, we can just laugh off the kicks and punches to the stomach. (perutku sangat sakit)

team spirit! =)

my heart is still racing. adrenaline is still going berserk. and i cant stop stuffing trix in my mouth.
eventhough my knee had little stones stuck to it yesterday, my stomach was mistaken for a punching bag for while, and the soles of my shoes are peeling of, i had loads of fun!!

looking forward to more! insyaAllah ;)

prof hatta ajar

"Mengapa kamu suruh orang lain mengerjakan kebajikan, sedang kamu melupakan diri (kewajipan) kamu sendiri, padahal kamu membaca Al-Kitab? Maka tidakkah kamu berfikir? "
[Al-Baqarah:44]

signs of stress

• no longer taking pleasure in activities that used to be enjoyable - reading doesnt seem to help anymore
• distracted by all that you have to do or that it's hard to keep track of little things , like where are my keys?- i keep forgetting where i park my car
  
• feeling on edge, frustrated or annoyed, having less patience - less patience, yess
  
• a change in eating habits, either eating more or less than usual- err, havent reached this stage yet
  
• sleeping more than usual (can't bring yourself to get out of bed) or having difficulty getting to sleep (too many things on your mind)- oh yes! i cant seem to get out of bed!
  
• being easily annoyed by simple problems or the way other people behave - somewhat, yes
  
• having normal emotions that are displayed to an extreme degree or for a prolonged period of time (e.g., fear, tearfulness, nervousness) - err, kind of
  
• marked changes in personality or mood- not really marked, but i can sense the changes
  
• listlessness, lack of energy- sgt lack!
  
• trouble concentrating or making decisions- i've always had trouble making decisions, so i guess not
  

i think my body is trying to tell me that its in stress. nak balik jb.
prof Hamdan kate - stress is self-inflicted.
Richard Carlson kate - stress is nothing more than a socially acceptable form of mental illness.

hahaha

very calming

very comel! =)

"And cover not Truth with falsehood, nor conceal the Truth when ye know (what it is)"
[Al-Baqarah:42]

Selamat hari raya, Maaf zahir & batin.

one thing to look forward to - viva putih open-house crashers gang makes a comeback!

chingching -ing

tonight is one of the nights i dont feel like studying (not at all rare), and dont feel like sleeping (very rare) been thinking about certain things. how i have been pretty occupied these past few months. and i havent been available to certain people i should have. sorry.

realization is the first step kn :)

i miss my mom's long emails - havent been emailing her much, asyik wat mcq je ;p
i miss talking to maya - she's busy all the time now. and when she's free, i think she deserves more time with her husband.
i miss my friends who live far away now - we only meet in college, for short intervals of time
i miss catching up with nab - she's busy nerding away ~ which is a good thing ;)
i miss raman - even further away
i miss my jumari jipans - cyber is too far away from civilization. and my holidays are not timed the same as theirs
i miss petiti - si tue cantek
i miss the narcissistic weirdo going thru menopause - i know u miss me too

cant wait to be home for raya ~ but i dont want Ramadhan to end.

countercurrent mechanism is confusing but damn interesting! my brain cells are going ching ching! ;)

A Ramadhan miracle ;))

sometimes God grants our wishes as soon as we ask for it. sometimes He postpones it a little while. sometimes He doesnt give it to us in this world. Sometimes He will 'gantikan dengan yang lebih baik'. All because He knows what we do not. He knows whats best for us. So do not despair if we do not get what we ask for. it proly wouldnt benefit us in any way. and i've learnt to not be too spesific in my doas. to ask for whats best for us is sufficent enough. insyaAllah.

yesterday i asked for an Ethan to go.
today i got 3 little 'ethans' =)
He 'gantikan dengan yang lebih baik'.. =))

to see pictures, go to nengneng's blog. =)

life really is full of ups and downs. ;)

"An Ethan to go pls,thank u"

its amazing what a good sleep, late night solitary prayers, a good cup of coffee, and watching little Ethan laugh on utube can do when you're not feeling so good.

Thank You God for the little pleasures in life that make a huge difference =)

"We find a delight in the beauty and happiness of children that makes the heart to big for the body" ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

loose screws

its been awhile since i last needed my 'la tahzan' book. sara thinks this endocrinology block is messing with my hormones. she might be right =p anyway, i opened the book and randomly picked a page to read. spot on!

DO NOT DESPAIR WHEN FACING TOUGH SITUATIONS

if u find yourself in a tough situation, do the following:

1. ask urself , what is the worst that can happen?
2. prepare urself to cope and to deal with that worst case scenario
3. if something bad does occur, meet it with calm nerves in order to deal with the situation better. the Quran guides us saying :

" those people (the believers) unto whom the people(the hypocrites) said : 'verily,the people(pagans) have gathered against you a great army, therefore fear them.' But it only increased the believers in Faith, and they said : 'Allah alone is sufficient for us, and He is the Best Disposer of affairs for us'. " [quran 3:173]

"and whoever fears Allah and keeps his duty to Him, He will make a way for him to get out of every difficulty. And He will provide him from sources he never could imagine. And whoever puts his trust in Allah,then He will suffice him." [quran 65:2-3]

"Allah will grant after hardship~ ease" [quran 65:7]

i feel better already =)
Alhamdulillah

the trip - a synopsis

kelantan was nice. Perhentian was a blast! =D

the food was superb! :)))

though there were many glitches along the way, it was quite inevitable, no? an event as big as this. but i do agree that alot could have been avoided had there been more careful planning. but then again, everything happens for a reason. and insyaAllah the next time we organize something, it would go smoother. quite a few tense moments though. heh.

but all was forgotten once we saw the gorgeous sea. i was the jakun-est. (as usual) the only other island ive been to before was langkawi. and i dont rmbr it being great. i was too young kot. i just rmbr we visited mahsuri's grave and climbed the bukit telaga or something.

it was my first time on a speedboat. loved it! i'd trade in the kelisa for a speedboat anytime! =)
my first time snorkelling. best experience ever! cant even begin to describe it.
first time on a looooong bus ride. this is one i would not like to repeat if possible.heh.

learnt quite a few things along the way. learnt first hand, that in times of trouble, only can u see who ur true friends are. who will stick by u through the hardship, and who will slip away hoping to go unnoticed.

people like to blame others. its become a habit. something bad happens, and instead of helping each other, trying to find solutions, we search high and low for someone to blame. we say we're all brother's and sister's. we're one big family. but sometimes all we worry about is that our once harum name is being tarnished. that people might think that the 'kids' mistakes are a reflection of their older siblings.

i believe in productive criticism. im all for it. i also believe that theres a fine line between that and just plain criticism. its in the way you deliver your complaints. your intonation. your facial expression. and when you say ure just trying to help us be better people but your face and tone of voice does not show it, we dont believe you.

i hate conflicts. i try to avoid it the best i can. and i hate when people pick on the underdogs just because they can.

all in all ~ i had a great time!perhentian would not have been as great without the people i went with. its really not where we go, but who we go with that make a trip beautiful. and i know that even if it was just pantai lido that we went to, i'd still think it was the best trip ever! =) the only downside would be that there'd be no cute turtles to stalk. ;)

Never do I argue with a man with a desire to hear him say
what is wrong, or to expose him and win victory over him.
Whenever I face an opponent in debate I silently pray -
O Lord, help him so that truth may flow from his heart
and on his tongue, and so that if truth is on my side, he may follow me;
and if truth be on his side, I may follow him.
- Imam Ash-Shafi'

We must begin looking at each other as brothers and sisters...and not walking brochures. We must see each others strengths and encourage those strengths....We must see each others weaknesses and be patient with those weaknesses... sometimes even look beyond what we see as "weaknesses" and move on with compassion and love and respect. That takes true faith.
- Dawud Wharnsby Ali