chanchumei

haematology is a silent killer. creeping up on you, disguised in all the beautiful sights you see under the microscope. tricking you into believing that a course with 3 credits should be easier than the ones with 4 or 5.

saya tidak begitu gemar dgn darah-logy. kamu?

nevertheless, i am constantly amazed at God's creation. How something that is so so sooo tiny as a red blood cell can be sooo crucial to human life. dont get me started on the platelets and the army of white blood cells and the macrophages. and oh! the coagulation cascade! gile kude.

if only being gile-ly amazed was all you need to ace this block. haih..

sometimes i wish i didnt have to care so much about things 'not worth caring about'.
takes up too much of my time. taking up my precious blood-studying time (as if).

oh, btw, dont forget to vote for Nab! & Sara! & Harith! & kak Tim! & Shashu! & Faizal! & Atuk! & Azra! & Zati! :)

lets embrace the philosophy! ;)

i have decided not to hate the person i've been hating. its a waste of energy and its making me a little busuk inside.and i dont think its benefiting me in any way.tambah dose adalah. i am officially not hating anyone anymore. yay.

dengan ini, saya membubarkan club benci ________(insert name) ;p

to club members, jom bukak new club! :)

majulah sukan demi Tuhan! =)

i keep quoting prof Hatta nowadays. heh

this sports carnival is off to a great start i think! =)

contrary to what you might think, its not because red house is winning most of our matches ;p

winning feels great of course. but whats better than winning is the feeling you get after a good match where everyone plays clean and fair. when everyone in the team gets to play, even the reserves. when people remember that the main objective of the sports carnival is to get all us cucmsians to bond, strengthen our ukhwah, and sweat like mad! and of course, cheering like crazy. i love how our super seniors who are super busy off in clinicals still come down for the matches and give their all. its times like these only do we get to meet and be silly,kan =) and also the foundys who we rarely get to mingle with. =)

then after the game, we can just laugh off the kicks and punches to the stomach. (perutku sangat sakit)

team spirit! =)

my heart is still racing. adrenaline is still going berserk. and i cant stop stuffing trix in my mouth.
eventhough my knee had little stones stuck to it yesterday, my stomach was mistaken for a punching bag for while, and the soles of my shoes are peeling of, i had loads of fun!!

looking forward to more! insyaAllah ;)

prof hatta ajar

"Mengapa kamu suruh orang lain mengerjakan kebajikan, sedang kamu melupakan diri (kewajipan) kamu sendiri, padahal kamu membaca Al-Kitab? Maka tidakkah kamu berfikir? "
[Al-Baqarah:44]

signs of stress

• no longer taking pleasure in activities that used to be enjoyable - reading doesnt seem to help anymore
• distracted by all that you have to do or that it's hard to keep track of little things , like where are my keys?- i keep forgetting where i park my car
  
• feeling on edge, frustrated or annoyed, having less patience - less patience, yess
  
• a change in eating habits, either eating more or less than usual- err, havent reached this stage yet
  
• sleeping more than usual (can't bring yourself to get out of bed) or having difficulty getting to sleep (too many things on your mind)- oh yes! i cant seem to get out of bed!
  
• being easily annoyed by simple problems or the way other people behave - somewhat, yes
  
• having normal emotions that are displayed to an extreme degree or for a prolonged period of time (e.g., fear, tearfulness, nervousness) - err, kind of
  
• marked changes in personality or mood- not really marked, but i can sense the changes
  
• listlessness, lack of energy- sgt lack!
  
• trouble concentrating or making decisions- i've always had trouble making decisions, so i guess not
  

i think my body is trying to tell me that its in stress. nak balik jb.
prof Hamdan kate - stress is self-inflicted.
Richard Carlson kate - stress is nothing more than a socially acceptable form of mental illness.

hahaha

very calming

very comel! =)

"And cover not Truth with falsehood, nor conceal the Truth when ye know (what it is)"
[Al-Baqarah:42]

Selamat hari raya, Maaf zahir & batin.

one thing to look forward to - viva putih open-house crashers gang makes a comeback!

chingching -ing

tonight is one of the nights i dont feel like studying (not at all rare), and dont feel like sleeping (very rare) been thinking about certain things. how i have been pretty occupied these past few months. and i havent been available to certain people i should have. sorry.

realization is the first step kn :)

i miss my mom's long emails - havent been emailing her much, asyik wat mcq je ;p
i miss talking to maya - she's busy all the time now. and when she's free, i think she deserves more time with her husband.
i miss my friends who live far away now - we only meet in college, for short intervals of time
i miss catching up with nab - she's busy nerding away ~ which is a good thing ;)
i miss raman - even further away
i miss my jumari jipans - cyber is too far away from civilization. and my holidays are not timed the same as theirs
i miss petiti - si tue cantek
i miss the narcissistic weirdo going thru menopause - i know u miss me too

cant wait to be home for raya ~ but i dont want Ramadhan to end.

countercurrent mechanism is confusing but damn interesting! my brain cells are going ching ching! ;)

A Ramadhan miracle ;))

sometimes God grants our wishes as soon as we ask for it. sometimes He postpones it a little while. sometimes He doesnt give it to us in this world. Sometimes He will 'gantikan dengan yang lebih baik'. All because He knows what we do not. He knows whats best for us. So do not despair if we do not get what we ask for. it proly wouldnt benefit us in any way. and i've learnt to not be too spesific in my doas. to ask for whats best for us is sufficent enough. insyaAllah.

yesterday i asked for an Ethan to go.
today i got 3 little 'ethans' =)
He 'gantikan dengan yang lebih baik'.. =))

to see pictures, go to nengneng's blog. =)

life really is full of ups and downs. ;)

"An Ethan to go pls,thank u"

its amazing what a good sleep, late night solitary prayers, a good cup of coffee, and watching little Ethan laugh on utube can do when you're not feeling so good.

Thank You God for the little pleasures in life that make a huge difference =)

"We find a delight in the beauty and happiness of children that makes the heart to big for the body" ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

loose screws

its been awhile since i last needed my 'la tahzan' book. sara thinks this endocrinology block is messing with my hormones. she might be right =p anyway, i opened the book and randomly picked a page to read. spot on!

DO NOT DESPAIR WHEN FACING TOUGH SITUATIONS

if u find yourself in a tough situation, do the following:

1. ask urself , what is the worst that can happen?
2. prepare urself to cope and to deal with that worst case scenario
3. if something bad does occur, meet it with calm nerves in order to deal with the situation better. the Quran guides us saying :

" those people (the believers) unto whom the people(the hypocrites) said : 'verily,the people(pagans) have gathered against you a great army, therefore fear them.' But it only increased the believers in Faith, and they said : 'Allah alone is sufficient for us, and He is the Best Disposer of affairs for us'. " [quran 3:173]

"and whoever fears Allah and keeps his duty to Him, He will make a way for him to get out of every difficulty. And He will provide him from sources he never could imagine. And whoever puts his trust in Allah,then He will suffice him." [quran 65:2-3]

"Allah will grant after hardship~ ease" [quran 65:7]

i feel better already =)
Alhamdulillah